You are the only key to get out of this room.(From the past story)

Some people say break up is nothing serious, but everyone is different, and points of view are also different. For me, my universe was literally destroyed by that one man at that time. After being betrayed by someone I loved most and trusted most, I hit bottom and was mentally dead that day. I thought I would never be okay back then, and I even thought about committing suicide.

But time went by, and I look into myself now. Everything is going well ultimately, and I am so proud of myself who is alive.

You see, Ellie, now you can tell, everything is up to you and you did a very good job. I am reading my journey of life back in 2020, Nov 17.

You are the only key to get out of this room.

November 17, 2020

I looked at some pictures on Facebook today. We have done so many things together. It is so sad that we didn’t mean to be each other. I thought my love was exceptional and would be happy ever after, but eventually, it was not. What can I say? I am still struggling. I couldn’t sleep yesterday night because of the coffee that I drank at 2 pm yesterday. I tried to sleep, but I kept thinking about her and him, which bothered me a lot. I tried to get rid of them. But somehow, It is still so hard. Will it be alright? When does it feel calm?

People make mistakes. Unfortunately, our marriage was a mistake. However, It is okay. It was just a mistake that anyone could make. It could happen to anyone. Ellie, you are standing in the cold winter now, but you can see the sprouts and flowers again after this winter.

Like butterflies breaking from the cocoon, you are not there yet, but gradually going there. You are almost there. But you need to hold tight and keep moving forward. Nothing can compare to how you feel, and your pain is the worst. Your sadness is the priority now for you. But don’t let your emotion swallow all of your soul. You are brave, kind, and beautiful. He is too.

Ellie, I know it is tough to stop thinking about him. But you need to stop trying to talk about him because it makes you more empty and drained. You are smart. You know what you have to do for yourself. The past is just the past. You can not change anything, and you can not control anyone’s mind except yourself. So, It is okay to let yourself go through this beautiful flow of life. When you are dancing like a ballerina, Singing like a bird, moving like a butterfly, you will know everything is gone one day. You are strong, and you have everything you need inside of you. You feel alone sometimes, but everyone is alone eventually. You can not ask the other person to fill you. That is the only way you can do for yourself.

Feel the warmth surrounding you. Look at the marvelous things just right outside the door. It depends on you. Your life is a miracle and mightily blessed by God. You are guided by love, and you are surrounded by blessing. You are the key to open the door of the next door. Only you can take you to heaven or hell. You will be alright. Of course, it takes time to move forward. But you will be okay in the end. Nothing is going to stay forever for you except yourself. So, take care of yourself, stop hurting yourself and love yourself. If you love and take care of yourself, you can see what is right for you.

It seems like a lot to you right now. However, this is nothing in your entire life. When it is time to leave your life, you think that it was just a tiny dot happening in your life.

He was just one of the destinations of your journey of life. And now you need to pack for another destination. You learned many things from the previous stop, and now you know what you have to fill for the next one. Keep moving to the place where your fate leads you. It is time to flip the page and write your own journey of travel called life.