'To be or not to be, that is the question. '

I have had a lot on my mind. I don't know what to do. I have felt stuck somewhere, but I know that I am imprisoned on my own.

Nobody asked me to stay, or nobody made me feel this way but myself.

Whatever decision I will make will be alright, will be ok but can follow regret one day.

I have walked without any destination, and I have lost.

Trying not to think about the future but will does this really solve the pain? I can not say it will.

I can not avoid this; it will beat me one day with much stronger than now if I try to keep away from it.

Then what, what is the next move?

I can not surely answer to myself.

I would not have dreamt of anything that was happened to me in the past. Somewhat was good, some not bad, some almost brought me down to the bottom.

My answer is still 'I dunno.'

Life is pretty unpredictable, and I feel like I entirely lost where I am going now. I feel like I am drowning in the middle of the ocean without safeguard, and I know there is only one who can save me is myself.

'To be or not to be, that is the question. '

-William Shakespeare

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