The Beauty and Chaos of My Obsessions

I feel like I have a condition where, once something gets into my head, I have to do it—no matter what it takes. It’s not something I can control; I’m kind of obsessed with whatever pops into my mind. It’s exhausting and often gets under my skin. For example, if I decide to finish an assignment, I won’t get up from my desk until it’s done. My poor back suffers from it.

At times, this frustrating habit has helped me accomplish a lot in life. But I often lose focus or get messy and disorganized, which makes everything take longer. I’m not great at organizing, and I don’t like making plans because they never seem to work out—just like my previous marriage. Still, all my impulsive decisions have brought me exciting and fun outcomes, so I can’t entirely regret them.

That said, I know planning could help me get more organized, both personally and professionally. Life always seems to test me with its complications. But with the new year approaching, I’ve decided to buy a planner for 2025. Why not start fresh and try making some resolutions? Even if they don’t work, maybe I can fool myself for a little while—after all, “new” feels hopeful and promising, doesn’t it?