Nursing Journey in Canada

17 January 2025

Today was a big day—so much was happening, and I almost lost my mind trying to keep up. It’s been a week since I started working as a Canadian nurse. I thought I was disciplined enough to handle this transition, given that I’ve already survived the challenges of working in South Korea. My biggest strengths have always been that I’m a fast learner and an enthusiastic person when it comes to tackling new things. Still, I was worried, mostly because of my English—especially my speaking and listening skills.

Speaking isn’t perfect yet, but it’s getting better! I can see myself improving with time and practice. But listening? Oh my goodness! That’s a whole different challenge.

Fortunately, my colleagues were incredible—so kind and thoughtful—but when they speak quickly or for too long, I find it so hard to keep up. It’s exhausting trying to focus, and I often miss what’s being said. I guess it’s time for me to hit the books and improve!

In Canada, I care for 5–6 patients during a day shift. Each patient requires so much attention and care. It’s overwhelming at times because everything here is so different from what I was used to in Korea.

One thing that really shook me was learning about MAiD—medical assistance in dying. Today was a MAiD day. Yesterday, my colleague and I had to ask a patient when they wanted to die. Can you imagine that? Asking someone to set a date for their own death. It broke my heart. She was suffering from unbearable pain and chronic illness, and I understand why she made that decision. But still, it was incredibly sad, and I cried a little.

On top of that, today was insanely busy. I felt terrible for her. It was hard to manage everything with so much going on. I’m still learning what my boundaries are—what I should and shouldn’t do—especially since we’re so short-staffed. The healthcare aides are stretched thin, and the porters only bring patients to and from the unit without helping much. It’s frustrating.

Moments like these make me miss Korea—especially the hospital cafeterias there. The food was so good, nutritious, and affordable. I really took that for granted. But despite everything, I’m determined to stick it out here as a Canadian nurse. It’s a steep learning curve, but I know I can do it.

On a brighter note, my colleague has been really kind to me. She even mentioned going to the movies with her friend and invited me to join them. I’m happy but also a bit nervous—maybe paranoid? It’s hard for me to trust people right away. Sometimes I worry people are just being polite or don’t really mean it when they’re friendly. But who knows? Maybe she genuinely likes me.

I keep thinking about what Eun-oh said from Korean TV show : “Don’t tell yourself you can’t.” That’s the mindset I need to keep. Life is like driving a bus—people come and go, but I don’t have to be sad when they leave. They’re just passengers, here for their part in my journey.

It was a big day, so good night, Ellie. You’ve done an amazing job this week. Moving to a new country and starting a completely different role is a massive challenge, but you’re handling it so well. I know you’ll figure it out, like you always do. I believe in you.

I love you, honey.